H E A L I N G ▫ A R T S
Dear beloved one,
I am writing with a note to you, daughter or son of a mother.
If the mother experience you’ve had in this life has been a perfect one, this letter is not for you.
This letter is for those with a mother wound. A mother loss, mother pain. Mother scars.
Continue ReadingYour calling has already found you.
I was meeting with my spiritual director recently and I said, “I feel like my calling chose me – like: it has me; I don’t have it.” I was describing the experience of feeling carried by something larger than myself, for a greater purpose (which is a huge blessing, by the way), and not having ultimate control in that process.
I’ve been thinking about that ever since, how I’ve come far enough now in life to understand that our vocations and callings are not something we have to struggle to figure out. I think we’re born into a purpose and that just by living our lives authentically, we can walk our way right into it, discover that we’re part of something larger, have been placed here for a specific and worthwhile reason for being.
A lot of the time we resist, insistent on trying to accomplish the way of our own choosing. I’m sure that sometimes the two are in alignment – what we want for our life’s mission and what life wants of us – but other times, and especially if our path is not meant to be a traditional one, not the way of the crowd, we try and go another way. The way our culture, parents, peer group, or schooling dictates for us. From the time we’re born, voices are constantly shouting “This is who you are.” Part of our life journey is to discover who we really are, what we have been created for, and what life wants to create for and through us. Then to have the courage to say to the world at some point, “This is who I am.”
My friends tell me that I ask great questions. It’s no wonder that I became someone who asks questions as a healing practice.
The truth is I’m just endlessly curious. I love learning about people, about life, and especially about spiritual things. That’s probably why I read so much.
Recently, it occurred to me that I could intentionally use curiosity as an approach to problems and challenges.
So much of life is mystery, isn’t it? How do you face the mystery of life? The issues, questions, challenges? I don’t know about you, but the mysterious makes me curious, and curiosity is at least a much more interesting approach to the mystery of life than fear.
Curiosity used in this way might look like:
Poet Rainer Maria Rilke wrote,
Continue ReadingThere is so much going on in the world, both on a global level and in the nitty-gritty of our daily lives. It can be a challenge to find ways to manage the stress of it all and remember the light and resilience we carry within.
I’ve long known that mindfulness practice is a powerful way to promote calm and reduce the effects of stress, but I recently learned the fascinating and life-changing details of just how it can achieve this.
I had the wonderful opportunity to speak with Dr. Kirk Bingaman, Fordham University professor of mental health counseling and spiritual integration, at Trinity Church Wall Street about anxiety (both personal and collective) and how mindfulness practice can help us manage it by rewiring the brain over time – toward resilience, non-reactivity, steadiness, and positivity. We discussed mindfulness practice, neuroplasticity, and how we can access calm and peace in daily life. Dr. Bingaman gave a presentation on these topics before our chat.
Did you know that the innate orientation of our brains is anxiety and hypervigilance?
This ancient design served an evolutionary purpose, as a way to help our ancestors anticipate threats and survive in the face of mortal danger a long time ago. It has helped humans survive through the ages.
Most of us no longer face the threat of being killed by a tiger, yet we all still carry a brain that is constantly anticipating danger and pain. In his book, The Power of Neuroplasticity for Pastoral and Spiritual Care (which I highly recommend!), Dr. Bingaman shares about the ways that mindfulness practice can help us steer the brain toward the positive:
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Have you ever found yourself dwelling on something negative in your life, unable to stop thinking about it, going over and over it like a tape is playing in your head? You might tell yourself that this constant worrying is actually beneficial; you might see it as you working on finding a solution to your problem or concern. Maybe the constant replay is of a negative memory, or a troubling thought.
This repetitive and negative dwelling is called rumination, and it happens in different degrees and intensities. It’s also a common feature of depression and anxiety.
Rumination is a mental loop, a dead-end, sometimes a continued rehearsing of hopelessness and despair. To ruminate is to get lost in the story, lost in the mind, lost in the negativity bias of the brain, lost in the past or the future. Sometimes, both.
The only way out is to first realize that you’re lost in the sauce, and then to let go of the mental hold. Let your end of the rope go, surrender the story, stop the incessantly replaying tape. Allow yourself release from that prison.
It might feel scary at first, but if you can begin to catch yourself when you’re ruminating and make the decision to let go of the story or offer yourself a healthy distraction (an activity that helps you move out of your head and into the present moment)-–
an inner silence eventually comes.
If you’re paying attention, you’ll notice when it settles on you, and you’ll notice what comes next:
the body speaks.
Loud and clear and in full feeling.
You’ll realize that it had been speaking all along but you couldn’t hear it because you were lost to yourself; you had abandoned it for the story, the mental calculations, the holding on.
It was waiting for you, in the present moment. As soon as you let go of the stories, you experience the body there holding your truth.
These truths sit in the physical form as pure feeling that can be experienced without the story, feelings that will begin to surface when you let go of the rumination. Those embodied feelings and sensations tell you exactly what you need to do about those issues you were trying to figure out in your head. They are very clear and unmistakable. They might take the shape of longing, sadness, disappointment, heartache, pain. These are the real feelings that the mental acrobatics was likely keeping you from truly experiencing.
The voice of whatever it is will speak. Your job is to honor and hold it. Create space for it as its wise and loving observer. Your job is to do your best not to run away, not to cloak it away in shame. Your only task is to give it some air, hold it up to the light. Get curious about it. Tell it, “I’m here for you, I see you. I’m listening.” Blanket it in all the compassion you can muster. It will give you its wisdom in return.
The body is in the present moment. That is where the solace and the answers (even the answer of “no answer”!) are. When you connect with the body, in this moment, it can help point you toward your way home.
The post above is for informational purposes; it is not meant to replace medical care, nor is it intended to prevent, treat, or cure any disease. Please consult with a qualified medical professional regarding your medical or psychological care.